半分は理解できたのですが。 以下、お願いします。
以下の文章は、登山が自分にとってどんな意味を持つのか、両親にわかって欲しかった方のものです。
It was not that I expected to die.以下が何を言いたいのか？概要でかまいませんので、お願いいたします。
前半は、「登山は自分や仲間の人生において切り離すことがでいないものである。自分は結婚や親になるなど社会が望むことはしない。人生は一度きり。しかしこの考えが間違っていた事を時が教えてくれた。」というようなことが書かれています。
It was not that I expected to die. Far from it. If I had thought that, I would have quit immediately. I did not want to deceive my parents any way. It seemed acceptable to delude myself, to build up however shaky a rationale for myself that enabled me to participate in something which had claimed the lives of so many friends, but this was because I was in the midst of it. Tunnel vision helped. I thought that, if I were absolutely honest, it would help them understand how important it was to me. In truth, I never managed to explain it to them and succeeded only in loading myself with yet another burden of guilt. It was a selfish pursuit that left the agonizing worry on loved ones while I enjoyed myself.
